When Fantasy Becomes Reality

What happens when a cuckold fantasy stops being fantasy… and becomes real?

In this episode of The Cuckold Marriage Podcast, we share the full story of our first real cuckolding experience—how it started, what led up to it, and the moment everything changed. We break down the emotions on both sides, including anticipation, jealousy, excitement, and the intense psychological dynamic that makes a cuckold relationship so powerful.

This episode goes beyond the story. We talk about the emotional impact of cuckolding, the importance of communication, and the realities that most people don’t talk about when exploring a cuckold or hotwife dynamic.

If you’ve ever been curious about cuckolding, cuckold relationships, or how to safely explore this dynamic with your partner, this episode gives you a real, unfiltered look at what it’s actually like when fantasy becomes reality.

Visit Lexie at www.CuckoldressLexie.com 

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:03

I remember the exact moment when it stopped being a fantasy and became real. She wasn't just talking about another man anymore. She was with him. And I didn't know if I was about to experience the biggest turn on of my life or completely break.

SPEAKER_01 0:20

Welcome back to the Cut Cold Marriage Podcast, where we talk about what this lifestyle is really like from a both sides of a married couple that's actually living it. Today we're going to get into the moment that everything changed, our first real experience, what we expected, what actually happened, and how we felt about it.

SPEAKER_00 0:38

Yeah, I'm so excited to be here again. My name is Chris, and I'm here with the one and only goddess, cuckholdress, Lexi Meadows. Welcome back, Lexi.

SPEAKER_02 0:47

Thank you.

SPEAKER_00 0:47

For those of you who uh who didn't catch our first episode, we are a real married couple and we're living a cuckold um lifestyle, marriage, and also uh female-led relationships. So this podcast is one in which we are discussing um the topic from a couple's point of view and uh really providing some of that. And today we're gonna talk about when fantasy becomes reality. And specifically, we're gonna talk about the first time that really it was the first real cuck experience versus Stag Vixen. So we're gonna kind of set up how we started and some of our initial things, and then kind of lead up to the first night where it became really a cuck old relationship and um and talk through both of our kind of emotions and everything that was going on. And it's really distracting right now, though, because Lexi is incredibly hot. So it's really hard to talk when you are just so freaking beautiful. So you know what I have to deal with, guys.

SPEAKER_01 1:44

Um, this is apologize in advance for the lack of attention you're gonna have to this podcast because you're looking at me.

SPEAKER_00 1:50

Yeah, this is this is very, this is very tough. So let's get this set up though, first. Um, so to set up, when we first started to to date, and I brought up and we talked about this in the first podcast, and I talked about kind of the the text message I sent and how you gave a positive reply. And then the first time we ever kind of broached it, and we're we're not gonna go through all of our emotions of this, but let's kind of walk through up to the point where we're gonna talk about the night we're gonna talk about. So, our first experience was a threesome. So we met a guy on a dating site, an online dating site, and um met him at a bar and ended up having our first kind of threesome. How how was that that was not awesome, right, honey?

SPEAKER_01 2:31

It was not the best. I mean, I don't want to talk bad about anyone, you know, but it was not the it was not the best experience.

SPEAKER_00 2:39

However, you know, that was my first ever time seeing my partner with somebody else, and so I was in the room, you know, with you. And I remember I was um we got into the bedroom, and I remember I I just started to like sit down and take off my shoes, and he already had you on the bed. And like before I was even undressed, like he was he was doing eager, he was a little eager beaver, he was a little eager beaver, but I remember that was my first time, and I just remember thinking, like, holy shit, it's actually like happening right now. Um, but you know, at that point in time, it was still at a point where we were stag vixen. So it was I was I was still the alpha in the room. Remember when it was more like that?

SPEAKER_02 3:20

So back in the day.

SPEAKER_00 3:21

Back in the day. So, you know, maybe, you know, Lexi, what did that feel like more when I was more kind of in that role in the room? Like I was in charge, like even the pecking, or like I I was calling the shots in there with with the three of us, you know, what what are your thoughts about that? And and you know, back when it was like that.

SPEAKER_01 3:38

Well, I mean, I I still enjoyed that too. I mean, I I enjoyed all aspects of you know our sexual relationships and how that they've how it's evolved. But um, there's certain there's something kind of fun sometimes to um maybe not always being in charge, maybe not. Um, you know, it's it's it's hot no matter who you are to see your partner um be in in the role of of being in charge and calling the shots. And so, you know, that's not just for for men for cucks. I mean, there's there's something hot about that for women sometimes too. So um, yeah, I mean, it was nice. I enjoyed it, the that aspect of it.

SPEAKER_00 4:22

Yeah, so we did that for a while, and then we decided we it was really not even we went to a um a sex club one night, you know, a swingers club. And that night you and I, and you talked about this this experience on the on the Venus Kakoldris spot.

SPEAKER_01 4:38

It's a different night, by the way, folks. We we did not have a threesome and then go to a sex club on the city. Right, right, right, right.

SPEAKER_00 4:44

So so so another another night, this is the one that you talked about on the Venus show. Um, we were in a sex club and uh you were in the restroom. And when you came back, talk about what happened with that interaction with the guy sitting at the bar.

SPEAKER_01 4:56

Oh, so uh I was leaving the restroom, and around the the corner when you come out is the bar, and you have to walk past the bar to get to um the table where uh Chris was sitting. And as I'm walking by, this guy just completely turns his body away from the bar to face me and just you know gives me the eyes. I mean, they were they were just like a you know, just devilish almost, you know, like hey, you looking for some fun type of eyes. And you know, he was there was something cute about him, and um, you know, I definitely like you know, I kept walking, but I was like, I was kind of like oh you know, it's like how you doing, and so I went straight past him to to Chris and immediately was like there's this guy at the bar. And he just gave me the eyes and I pointed him out, and nice and awkward, you know, we like look over and he kind of waves, like, yeah, hey, that's me. And um, yeah, I mean, you were you were totally all about it. You're like, let's invite him over right now, right this second. And I was like, Oh, okay, all right, that's what we're doing, right? This is this is happening right now.

SPEAKER_00 6:08

Yeah, and that was the first time that you had me, the first of many times now. You have had me go fetch a guy for you.

SPEAKER_01 6:16

Yeah. Um love doing that.

SPEAKER_00 6:19

I mean, quite frankly, at a sex club, it's a little bit less awkward. Yeah, you know, you've had me fetch guys at normal bars, which is normally a less a more awkward conversation, but which is exactly why I have you do it.

SPEAKER_01 6:31

Yeah, exactly.

SPEAKER_00 6:33

But I went in and and basically went up to the guy and and just said, Hey, my wife asked if you wanted to come sit down with us, and he immediately popped up from his car stool.

SPEAKER_01 6:43

Was watching y'all, and I mean, like, it was two seconds, and he was off that stool.

SPEAKER_00 6:46

He was off that stool, and and he was, you know, shortly after he was sitting right by you. And um, that was the first night where I started to feel cut because immediately you were just immersed in him. So I was at the table. So, what was going through your head when you were kind of immers? I mean, you were just immersed in him from the word go.

SPEAKER_01 7:07

I was. I mean, like, I knew you were there and existed, but at the same time, like all my focus and attention really was on him. You know, it just he was very charming, yeah. He was very charismatic, and he stole the spotlight right away, uh, right away from you. And um, and I was totally fine with that. And I I mean, we we just had a fun time talking, and it wasn't too long before that um a song that I freaking love to dance to came on, and so and I immediately was like, Ah, I love this song, and he was like, Oh, okay, you want to dance?

SPEAKER_00 7:49

And I was like, Why yes, I do, as a matter of fact, and so we just left your ass there, yes, you did, and my heart just sank into my feet when you guys got up, and then you guys went onto the dance floor, and the first thing he did was like literally lift you off your feet, so you were like in the and I just remember I felt so small, and like that was the first time I really felt like what they talk about with this angst. I hadn't felt it before that moment. So, and what was going on? So, you're on the dance floor, like, what are you thinking? What's going through your mind?

SPEAKER_01 8:21

At that point, you're not on my mind at all, sweetie pie. Yeah, um, I was having I was having a big old time. I mean, it was it was so much fun. I was at that point already, you know, had had a few drinks, was loosened up, and so like I was actually able to dance and enjoy it and not think too much, like, oh gosh, do I look weird? Um, so I was fully um immersed in the the situation, and I I was having a ball with this this new tall, handsome stranger that you know knew just how to dance with me and pick me up at one point and all that fun stuff.

SPEAKER_00 9:00

It wasn't that tall. Not that I'm jealous or anything.

SPEAKER_01 9:03

Yeah, right.

SPEAKER_00 9:05

So yes, so guys, so here is where like the jealousy starts to kick in. Because like I was at that point like jealous. Like I was I was super turned on, but I was jealous. I felt like I felt all the things that you so as you're going through this from like a fantasy perspective, because I had fantasized about this moment forever, and then it was happening, like it was actually happening, and so the fantasy is just the whole time you're like turned on, and and you're just you all of all of that that you're turned on, you're ready to go. And when it was actually happening, there was such a mix of emotions that I didn't expect. Like part of it was like almost panic, because I didn't know if you were gonna come back to the table or not. So I was a little bit panicked. You came back to the table, and I mean, not more than 10 minutes later, you leaned over to me and you said, Should I fuck him? And do you remember that?

SPEAKER_01 9:58

Yeah, that was that was so cute. That was back when I would actually ask your permission first. Yeah. Oh, how cute.

SPEAKER_00 10:05

God, how things have changed. So anyway, she asked my permission or or just said, Should I? I mean, I knew that there wasn't really a yeah, wasn't a question.

SPEAKER_01 10:14

You didn't have much of a choice, but still, like that, it was me questioning as opposed to telling.

SPEAKER_00 10:19

Yeah, exactly. And then and then I I said, Well, can I watch? And you said yes, I which which I'm not sure if that happened today, if what your answer would be today, if I said, Could I watch? Because I asked you, could I watch?

SPEAKER_01 10:30

Depends on how good of a boy you've been earlier that day.

SPEAKER_00 10:32

Yeah, yeah, exactly. I know you like your privacy. Like, that's one of the reasons why she spends a lot of you know her encounters with her bulls alone. She just she likes the privacy, and I get that. So, um, so you so you ask if you can fuck him, and and then we go into the back room, and he's kind of you're I'm kind of chasing behind you at this point. Like you guys are puppy. I'm like a little puppy, and you guys go in and we go into the big giant room with a giant round bed that is used for group activity.

SPEAKER_01 10:59

Which we did not know.

SPEAKER_00 11:00

We didn't know, we just thought it was a big bed.

SPEAKER_01 11:02

It's a bed. We didn't we didn't understand that it's open, it's open, and so um, I think if I remember correctly, there might have been a curtain that you could close to try and you know tell people, hey, no private party. Um, but we didn't know that. And so and we didn't close it, and so it did not take long. I'm in the middle of of having fun, and I look up, I look up and I realize that there are like two other couples like on this big round bed with us. And I was like, well, uh a little late to close the curtain now, I guess. Here we are.

SPEAKER_00 11:39

That escalated very quickly. It did, but even before that happened when the other couples were in there, you know, I was again like, I feel like I must be the slowest undresser ever. Because like I was barely getting off my shoes, and he lifted you up in the air and like threw you on the bed, which was hot. It would that I guys, that was like that. There was nothing not hot about that. Like that, like my heart again went to my feet, but like it was just pure, like holy shit. Yeah, like it was on, and then um, I just kind of watched for a while, but then I eventually got involved, and it ended up being like a threesome with an audience of people around also having fun.

SPEAKER_01 12:21

Well, but before you got involved, that was when um a girl came in and she started what touching your leg?

SPEAKER_00 12:32

Yeah, she tried. She she was like, Oh, you're you're good looking. And and then Lexi just like seriously, she was just she was getting rails at the time, and she just like snapped out of it and like just swatted it down like an NBA player batting down a ball. Like she swatted down the the woman's hand, or did she swat down my hand?

SPEAKER_01 12:51

You did something, or did you touch your leg and gave you a look that said take care of it or I fucking will.

SPEAKER_00 12:56

Oh, that's right, that's right. That's that's what you did, but you swatted me like it was like you just, but you like snapped out of like you were like in the moment, like getting fucked, and then you just like your eyes popped up, like it was like a guard dog.

SPEAKER_01 13:07

No one touches my man. Yeah, I don't share, he shares, I don't share.

SPEAKER_00 13:11

Yeah, exactly, exactly. So she was shooed off.

SPEAKER_01 13:14

That doesn't matter who it is. If it's you know, my my husband, my cuck, my bull, it doesn't matter, like he's mine.

SPEAKER_00 13:21

Well, actually, this just brings up a good discussion point. So you at that moment in time were having sex with somebody else, and I was turned on and excited. This other woman comes in, and so you immediately, from your perspective, like that, you know, what are you thinking as that happens? Your immediate thing is just to go into the like he's still mine.

SPEAKER_01 13:40

I'm not using him right now, but he's still mine, right?

SPEAKER_00 13:44

And so, from my perspective, a guy might think, Well, was that tempting at all? You know, like like what was going through my mind, like at that time when she, you know, started to, I think she put her hand down my like chest or something like that. And um my only thought was get me out of this situation right now. Like, I was like, How do I make her go away? Like, so was I tempted at all or anything like that? Like, no, zero percent. My sole focus was was on like go the fuck away. Like, how do I get out of this situation? I don't want you here. Um, because I'm so focused on Lexi. Like, I mean, that's the cool thing about cucks is that we are just we put our our partners on a pedestal. And I mean, she bel deserves to be on it. She's an amazing woman and a fantastic cuck woldress. Um, and so that's what was I was thinking that time. I I wasn't thinking about it at all. Okay, so let's fast forward then. Okay, so so we have that good time that night with him. And then the next day you and I start to have a discussion. Why don't you talk about what we talked about doing next with him?

SPEAKER_01 14:46

Well, um, a one-on-one overnight dinner date. So um we were going to uh he was gonna take me out to dinner, and then we were going to um have some drinks, and I was gonna spend the night with him.

SPEAKER_00 15:03

Yeah, and you guys decided to stay at a hotel um because he was living a little bit far away from us. And um, so what were you thinking? Like, like what when we initially planned that out, because I remember we were talking about we're like, you know, it'd be cool, like, why don't you like go spend the night with him one night? And like for me as a cuck, this this is like you know, dream fantasy is becoming reality. It's like, you know, it's your fantasy, you want your wife to go spend the night with somebody else, not just like be with them, but like this is like the next level of like leveling up, right? It's like you're gone for the entire night. Um, so what was your initial thought when we talked about it? And we're like, okay, we're gonna do this. Were you excited? Were you nervous? Like, what was going through your mind both?

SPEAKER_01 15:42

I mean, it's always gonna be nerve-wracking. Um, you know, being with anyone that is even relatively new. Yes, I had already technically done him, but it was like 24 hours prior, and he's still new. And uh, you know, you have the post-nut clarity, I have the post-alcohol clarity where I'm like, okay, now I'm nervous again. Now I'm now I'm freaking out a bit. Um, but I mean, I was still excited to do it. You know, I I remembered how you know what a good time we had with him. And so um, I was excited, nervous but excited, totally down.

SPEAKER_00 16:19

Yeah. And so then what happened is let's fast forward now to like the day of, and like this is where I want to kind of get both of our viewpoints on that. So on on the day of, I guess the first thing I want to discuss is like, did either of us think about stopping it? Like on the day of? Like, did you did you think, you know, like, hey, maybe this isn't the greatest idea? Like, did that question really? No, yeah, me neither. I was I was like beyond excited. And I remember helping her pick out her outfit.

SPEAKER_01 16:50

Help me get packed.

SPEAKER_00 16:51

I remember you wore that that really sexy tank top that has the zipper that like goes down, so it's like really a lot of cleavage. I helped you get packed. I mean, it was everything, guys, that you dream of happening, like it was happening in real life, and I was just at that moment in time, I was thinking, I can't believe this is happening. What were you thinking as you were like getting ready?

SPEAKER_01 17:11

Um, it was a little bit of that. Like, I can't believe this is happening, but um, you know, it was it was just excitement, and I was I was ready to go.

SPEAKER_00 17:19

Now you had done this before. You you had, I mean, maybe not, I think you had told me that that was the first time you had actually spent the night, even though you had, you know, cut guys before. I don't remember if you had told me you had spent the night while cacking somebody else.

SPEAKER_01 17:34

I don't think that I did, no, actually.

SPEAKER_00 17:37

Yeah. And so um would did this one feel different then? Since it was gonna be a sleepover?

SPEAKER_01 17:46

Yes, because the ones in the past had been very much more of a um wham bam thank you, ma'am type of situation. Um, they you know, they hadn't been like dinner and you know, overnight and you know, any any sort of whining and dining of any kind. And so um, you know, this definitely felt very different. And I I I liked it. It felt so much better. I felt um I felt like I I don't know, it was it was just it was a more complete experience as opposed to just solely being about sex and being like a short amount of time. Instead, it was more of a meal, it was it was a full experience.

SPEAKER_00 18:36

Yeah, I I I'm I'm I'm glad that you had that that experience because I think that it helped you to get to where you are now. Absolutely. You know, realizing that you know, not having me there, you could have you know fun. Um so so let's fast forward. So I I remember you got ready and I remember, you know, I took a couple of pictures of you to remember the moment, and then you got into an Uber and and took off. And um, I remember looking at your locations and seeing, you know, you were heading to this restaurant.

SPEAKER_01 19:12

Freaking stalker?

SPEAKER_00 19:13

Yeah, sorry. I was like, you know, at this point in time those suckers off. Well, actually, you know, Lexi, I know that there's questions you want to ask me to get into my head, and then and then after that, we're gonna ask Lexi. I'm gonna ask Lexi questions to get into her head. So now let's walk through like now is the night. Like now you're on the way to dinner. So now we're here. Let's talk about how it felt from both perspectives.

SPEAKER_01 19:33

Well, I mean, I want to know if you felt jealousy or excitement first after I left.

SPEAKER_00 19:38

Oh, I felt a little bit of both. I felt um jealousy, excitement, some sadness, a little bit of like, holy shit, is this really happening right now? Um, I I think I felt kind of everything. I would say the excitement was bigger than the jealousy at that point in time. Um, at that moment in time. However, um, you got there, and then not more than probably 15 minutes after being there, I got a text from you, the first text of the night. And this is when you used to send me more updates. And the first text of the night was three pictures of you and him. Well, one was just of you, and then there was two of you and him kind of kind of snuggling. And you wrote the words jealous yet with a question mark. And at that moment in time, yes, at that moment in time, the jealousy became the overriding emotion because you like literally called it out and caused it. You caused it. So, and sorry if you're watching the video, there is a fly who has decided to just not leave it.

SPEAKER_01 20:39

This is that time of year. The second you open the door to let the dogs out, they just like file, single file in.

SPEAKER_00 20:45

Yeah, exactly. So, um, so anyways, that's what we're dealing with here. But yeah, when I got that, when I got that text from you that said jealous yet, like that then set off my jealousy and my angst, and like in the most awesome and awful way at the same time. You know, is is interesting because um I was listening to to another podcast today, and uh, and they were they were talking about just how you know the experience can be awesome and awful at the same time. And I would say that's exactly what it's like. It is it is awesome and it is awful, like because it's it's like happening and it's real. And so, yeah, in that moment in time, it was awesome and awful at the same time when I got that text.

SPEAKER_01 21:21

Yeah. Did you were you surprised by that?

SPEAKER_00 21:24

I mean, yeah, I had no fucking idea that you were gonna do that and that you were gonna like dig into like, you know, like almost like a that that that was like cucking me, you know. That I had no idea you at that point in time like had that side of you in you. So that was the first I ever saw of what would now be cuckolders Lexi. That was the first kind of shot in the war.

SPEAKER_01 21:47

Um you felt like a dynamic shift in that moment.

SPEAKER_00 21:50

Oh, I felt a total dynamic shift. I felt, I felt, not only did I felt, I knew for a fact I was completely powerless that you were at dinner with this guy, you were clearly having fun, you clearly thought he was cute. I knew you thought he was cute. And you were having dinner right before you were about to go to a hotel for the whole night. Like I knew at that moment in time, like I had lost control.

SPEAKER_01 22:11

Didn't in that moment did you feel like hesitant about it, or was it like clarity?

SPEAKER_00 22:15

It was clarity. It was um, so one of the things that I've learned, but there was also like panic. So like I was panicky too. Like I was having like major cuckold angst. Um, and um, it was um it got more intense as the night went on, especially after this was before you used to cage me. So at some point in the night there was some postnet clarity, and that's when it got bad, but we'll get to that point in a minute. But I mean, the whole time there was angst. I was I was angsty the whole time. Um, but I would say at this point of the night it was still more awesome than awful. It didn't get awful until a little bit later in the night.

SPEAKER_01 22:48

Right. Yeah, no, I rem I remember how it got later in the night. You had a bit of a reaction.

SPEAKER_00 22:57

Yeah, yeah. So um did you have another question for me? Yes, so the way that it that it played out later in the night is that it um yeah, so after the post nut clarity hit, that's when I really panicked. And that was maybe around 1 a.m. or so. And by this time, by the way, you had sent other other updates.

SPEAKER_01 23:18

Yeah, other updates like pictures and videos and all sorts of fun stuff.

SPEAKER_00 23:24

Yeah, so I was getting a I was I was seeing what was happening real time. Yes, and so that was um that was amazing and also really, really difficult at the same time. It was um, yeah, because I had that angst and all that stuff, and then it was super hot, and then we got to the post-not clarity because those pictures were so hot, thank you so fucking much. Welcome, and then immediately when that happened, then those pictures are still there. So cucks who are in living in fantasy right now and not in in in actually doing it yet, like just know that this is like something that'll happen, right? Those pictures, those same pictures that are super hot, become completely the opposite of that 0.5 seconds after postnot clarity. So um, you know, I'm sitting here with those pictures now. Now, uh at that point in time is when like the panic really started to set in. And I think at one point I even called you and I was like, hey, maybe maybe like we're done here. Maybe you should like come down clear. You're clearly done, I'm clearly done. What were you for one thing?

SPEAKER_01 24:25

It was not a phone call, folks. It was like 10 different text messages and a couple of phone calls and absolute panic. Yeah, but fortunately You were like, I'll listen, I'll uh let's let's get you an Uber, you can you can come back, you've had your fun, da-da-da. Um, you know, maybe this was not a good idea. And I basically, you know, at this point, it's it's late at night. I am I'm tired at that point. Um, I'm I'm in no mood to get dressed and go get in an Uber and drive across town and come back to my angsty husband.

SPEAKER_00 25:03

So um I was the hotel was 10 minutes away, it was not across town.

SPEAKER_01 25:07

Was it not?

SPEAKER_00 25:08

It was not.

SPEAKER_01 25:08

Okay, well, 10 minutes is way too far. Um, but you know, I was in no mood and I was tired and I just wanted to like, you know, go to sleep and and continue the night as planned. Um so I I basically said, You're okay, this is gonna be okay. I'm gonna see you in a matter of hours. You're picking me up from the hotel in the morning and get some rest.

SPEAKER_00 25:30

Yeah. And so that's what happened. Um, and that was that was the right answer by her. So now let's kind of get into your head a little bit more about that night. So you're at dinner now, you're with him. Did you feel more turned on or overwhelmed, or like what did you feel? Like, was there like like what was going through your mind? You're sitting at dinner with him. Like uh tell me everything you were thinking.

SPEAKER_01 25:50

I mean, I was um I was a little, I don't know, if I quite so overwhelmed, but I mean I was a little nervous and it was, I mean, this was this was new again, because in the past there wasn't winning and dining involved in the cup holding. It was it was just very much taking care of business. Transactional. Very transactional, extremely, which now looking back, I'm like, oh, I missed out on all those years.

SPEAKER_02 26:15

You really did.

SPEAKER_01 26:16

Like I could have, I could have, you know, had some different experiences. Um but you know, it was it was it was a lot. It was new and different, and um, I enjoyed it, but it was definitely it felt unlike anything that I um had experienced up until that point.

SPEAKER_00 26:35

And did did reality of the situation match the fantasy? Like so, whatever you had in your head of what was gonna be.

SPEAKER_01 26:41

I sure did. I had a freaking ball. It was just as charming and wonderful and nice and funny as he had been at the club. And I was totally glad to be there. And I was, you know, glad it was just us two. And yeah, it was fun.

SPEAKER_00 26:59

Okay, so guys, this is a fantastic moment here because at this moment in time, my body is having the same reaction it did that night. So there's jealousy, there's like tingles, there's like heart going to your feet, um, there's the angsty moment. Um, it's all the emotions combined in one watching my wife say that to me. Yeah, and so that's the cuckold thrill right there, is like it's happening real time. So thank you for doing that. So that we could kind of illustrate that illustrate that. So, what what were there thoughts that you had that night that surprised you?

SPEAKER_01 27:33

Um, I mean, not particularly. I I kind of pictured it going one way and it did. Except, you know, I didn't picture you having a middle of the night freak out, but yeah. It's it was fine. So you've been thinking about it, but turning fantasy into reality takes more than curiosity, it takes direction. I work with couples and individuals to guide you through the conversations and dynamics that make a cuck holding relationship actually work. Those first conversations and introductions to your fantasy are especially critical. Done right, it changes everything. Done wrong, it can break it. If you're ready to do it the right way, book time with me at cuckholderslexie.com.

SPEAKER_00 28:28

And so you're in the moment, you're in the bedroom with him. Like, am I do you feel connected or disconnected to me? Like, what are your thoughts? Like, like what's happening in the in the in the hot wife in the cuck holdress's head, like in the bedroom, like when the husband is or the partner is not there.

SPEAKER_01 28:43

So before I sent the Pix video that I took, you know, specifically to send to you, before I sent those, um, you know, there was uh not as much connection to you. It was just me and him. And, you know, um there wasn't much of a connection. I felt so much better after having sent um those pics and videos. So it I brought you into the fold and it felt more like um our relationship was still in view, it was still, you know, active and important. And um, you know, even though we don't always do this anymore now as we've progressed and everything, we still do sometimes, just we don't always. Um, but you know, during that night, speaking of specifically of that night, I definitely felt um a stronger sense of closeness and uh connectivity by sending you that stuff. It felt good.

SPEAKER_00 29:40

Interesting. Okay, that that's interesting because I've never heard you uh articulate that before. So when you when you brought me more into the mix and it became more conscious, so did it make the whole experience better or it just made your connection with with me stronger?

SPEAKER_01 29:54

Just the connection with you.

SPEAKER_00 29:55

Okay, so you were having fun no matter what.

SPEAKER_01 29:57

I was saying I was gonna have fun no matter what.

SPEAKER_00 29:59

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 30:00

Let's not lie.

SPEAKER_00 30:01

Yeah, well, I'm glad I'm glad you had a good time. So the next morning, I went to go pick you up, and and that's you know, let's talk about a little bit of that. So the next day, well, I remember waking up the next day, and I was just so thankful it was the next morning I was gonna see you again. Um, and I remember being in the shower, just almost like shaking, because I was like so like excited to like get you. I was like, oh my gosh, she's almost back with me. She's almost back with me. Um, and I would say that that feeling is more mild now than it was, but I still always have that until you're back, like physically with me, uh my body can't calm. Like it's it's it's in a constant state of like angst or like anxiety. Um, and then and there may be thrilling parts of that, it may feel good, but at the same time, it doesn't calm until you're physically with me. So, did this night, did that experience that night the next morning, did it, did it kind of confirm this lifestyle to you? Did it raise questions? Like what shifted after having that overnight?

SPEAKER_01 31:00

No, I mean it definitely confirmed. Um, I I definitely felt good about it afterwards. Uh, I was, as you have told me before, glowing. Um, it it was it was great. I I thought that it was an awesome new uh adventure that we had just started embarking on. And I I thought that it was um a great um change and a brand new world we were kind of opening in ourselves up to.

SPEAKER_00 31:25

Yeah, I I I agree. I think that that it confirmed the lifestyle for me as well. I think that it was uh especially when you when you were back with me, it was awesome. I was like, that was the greatest thing on the planet.

SPEAKER_01 31:36

You were so excited.

SPEAKER_00 31:37

I was so excited. I was I was I was ready for for you to go on your next one. Um but yes, but it still happens. Like when you leave for like a the sleepover, something like that, I still get like that today, but it's just not as intense. Like I'm able to get through it now, whereas that night I just I wasn't. Um, so what when it talks about um what changed in in how we saw each other? So the next day when I saw you, you know, there there was, you know, it was kind of different. What was anything changed when the when you saw me next? Like was there any shift in in how you viewed me or anything like that after, you know, the first time really cucking me?

SPEAKER_01 32:14

I mean, I felt a little bit extra respect for you because you did fully share me. You know, you you allowed me to go out, enjoy myself, have an entire evening and night, um, and and really, you know, you you let me have that freedom, you let me have that experience. Um, and then coming back, you were in a good chipper mood about it. And so yeah, I think that it actually, you know, helped add some some respect that I felt for you um after that.

SPEAKER_00 32:52

That's really nice to hear. And for me, it just confirmed how amazing you are and and how awesome you were. And the next day you you said some stuff that was like, oh, it was like daggers, it was amazing. I think we went and had lunch that day, and you just randomly said, Yeah, he fucked me good, and like something like that. And I was like, Holy shit. Like I had to tease a little, come on, yeah, but you had never really done that. Like that was your first time really doing a lot of teasing. This was now years ago. Now now you're a pro at teasing. You are a pro. But before, I mean, this was at the beginning, so I didn't like I hadn't experienced any of this before. Um, and what did you learn immediately from that situation around the cuck holding lifestyle? Did you learn anything?

SPEAKER_01 33:37

I mean, I learned that it could be so much better than I had been experiencing experiencing it for so many years prior. Um, you know, I like it, like we just said, I learned I had been missing out a bit. Um, that it could be so much more and so much better than um what I had imagined it could possibly uh entail. Um I definitely felt that it, you know, in the greater experience and um and all that, it it helped me to feel a lot closer, you know, to you than I did in the past with my previous partner, whenever I would go out and do these things and it was more transactional and um you know, the vast differences, it definitely the connectedness wasn't the same. Um, so I think it was just a whole new level on in every regard um after after doing that.

SPEAKER_00 34:31

I I think that it was um I mean it just again, like like I just said, it just showed me what kind of a unique person I was with. And um it every time we reconnect, it it just makes us so much stronger. And so guys with this as a fantasy or guys with it with reality go will know this, but the super hot, but I mean the sex club part was super hot, you spending the night was super hot, the pictures was super hot, the real payoff is the connection. And I didn't expect that, you know. I thought that that uh you know, for the for the years that I was that that I had this as a fantasy, I really thought about just the sex part of it. I didn't really think about how it would impact the relationship, other than maybe being worried it wouldn't be the best thing for the relationship, you know, for any relationship. But what what what I was surprised to learn is just the level of deep connection that you that you have with your partner when when you do this, and especially when you get a chance to to do the reconnecting sex and all that kind of stuff, that's which we don't we don't do all the time, but but even though we don't do the reconnecting sex any anymore all the time, because Lexi is Lexi is in Cuck Holders 10,000 at this point in time, but we still reconnect. Like even if it's a hug and a kiss, the the point is that that that physical reconnection, that that that emotional reconnection is something that you have to do. What what are your thoughts on that, Lexi? What have you learned about the importance of of reconnecting in aftercare?

SPEAKER_01 36:09

Well, I mean, I think that it uh we've I think it's it's super important. And I think that we've evolved to a place where um, you know, it's not just about reclaiming um, you know, in sex. Um that first time, you know, this this instance that we've been talking about this whole time. I mean, you reclaimed me what twice that day? Was it once or twice? Maybe it was more once or twice the next day, once on Monday. Like it was like I was I basically at one point had to just like shove them off me with a stick, like, okay, okay, I get it. You know, um, and we don't typically do that um, you know, anymore, it varies, obviously, but um, I think that the the aftercare and reconnecting, even just on an emotional level, is what keeps this alive and keeps it in healthy boundaries. Because uh, if you're not doing reconnecting on a physical, emotional, or um, you know, combination of the two level, um it starts to just be her constantly going out and having sex with other men, period.

SPEAKER_02 37:19

Right.

SPEAKER_01 37:20

It's no longer a connection, it's no longer, you know, there's still a strong foundation and the couple is strong, it just becomes she keeps going out and fucking other dudes.

SPEAKER_00 37:29

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 37:29

So it's important.

SPEAKER_00 37:30

Right. And it's at that point that it feels like it's happening to you and not with you. Right. And that's the key right there. Let's now, um, so that guys, that that's the story of our first time about our first time doing cuck holding in this relationship. I hope that you learned a little bit about kind of what the process tactically looked like, but also the emotions going and what was going through both of our heads at the time. And I hope that that is helpful, especially to folks who maybe have this as a fantasy, who haven't um acted it out yet, that you can understand better what it's actually gonna feel like when it does become reality for you, because we're gonna hold out hope for you that it does become reality if that's something that you know you and your partner are gonna be able to um to get to. One of the things that I said last time is that I'm gonna try, and I can't promise that I'm always gonna be able to do this. Spring a story on Lexi that is gonna surprise her so that we can have kind of a more natural reaction.

SPEAKER_02 38:21

Great.

SPEAKER_00 38:22

Today's story is the story of the beads. The story of the beads, the beads, the beads in New Orleans on Bourbon Street. So Lexi and I decided to take a trip to New Orleans. We don't live all that, we live in Texas, so we're not all that far from it. And uh drove out to New Orleans, and uh and I knew Lexi was gonna be Lexi's a fun girl, so I knew it was gonna be a fun night. So that uh that that Saturday night, I think we drove in on like a Friday night, and so we just you know we crashed that night, and then we we went out on Saturday. And uh Lexi, do you want to kind of take the story from there a little bit about the about uh the night, maybe your attire, like what the plan was going out?

SPEAKER_01 39:04

I mean, I can probably relay the bits that I remember.

SPEAKER_00 39:08

Yeah, let's play up to the point where you forget, and then I'll fill in the gaps.

SPEAKER_01 39:12

Don't fill in too many gaps.

SPEAKER_00 39:14

Oh, I won't. Um who's going to focus on the number of beads?

SPEAKER_01 39:18

Yeah, so the the beads, the beads got to be so much that they were hurting my back.

SPEAKER_00 39:26

Well, so just to back up, like I mean, you earned the bead, right? So you you're dressed super, super separately.

SPEAKER_01 39:33

I earned those beads. Right.

SPEAKER_00 39:34

I mean, Lexi always looks amazing. So she was wearing this really cute, like tight black top and these short shorts. And at first you were a little bit shy about getting the beads, right?

SPEAKER_01 39:44

I was terrified. I was so scared to get them. And thankfully, you know, we started early enough on in the night to where I didn't have a big audience or anything like that. And so I it took me so long to get up the courage to actually flash. Like it took so long. I was so scared. And at first I did, I was kind of like, I just looked up at the balcony, like, please give me beads, you know, and they were like, um, not for free, honey. You know, and it it took a while, and then slowly, as you know, I got one or two, and then you know, the drinks kept pouring, and you know, I I started to get more and more brave. And before you know it, I literally had so many that I had to transfer them to you to carry for me because I could no longer um flash because the beads were in the way. There was too many, it was physically impossible. We got some beads that literally they were they were each each bead, they were almost the size of my head.

SPEAKER_00 40:45

They were enormous, and so um I th I mean I'm gonna say you got at least 50, 60 pairs of beads. I mean, it was it was a lot, if not more. Maybe it was a hundred. Did we count it out?

SPEAKER_01 40:58

I think we counted it out. It was it was like a hundred or something.

SPEAKER_00 41:01

Yeah, so imagine, guys, uh, she got probably a hundred beads. I'm wearing 90 of them at least around my neck at one point in the night. Um, as Lexi goes up and down Bourbon Street, like just can and by this point, she's she's got a crowd. Like, she's got now a fan club following her.

SPEAKER_02 41:18

Good gosh.

SPEAKER_00 41:18

Um, and uh, and so everybody's cheering and all that stuff. And I mean, she's being just hilarious. I mean, she's being just she was the reason why she was hilarious is not anything you were specifically doing, except for the fact that you were so determined. It was almost like it was almost like you were an Olympian trying to win a gold medal, and you were just so serious. Like you're fake, you you you were not like dancing and partying, you were serious. And so you're getting all the beads, and I'm I'm wearing 90 of them.

SPEAKER_01 41:46

It's a serious business, you know.

SPEAKER_00 41:47

I'm wearing 90 of them, and keep in mind, folks, this is June in New Orleans. So if you've never been into New Louisiana in June, we are talking swamp. Yep, it is it is 90 degrees, it is 100% humidity. I have all these colors rolling down my my neck because I have all the beads on, so it's my neck is green and ladies.

SPEAKER_01 42:06

This is why you get a cuck, so he can carry your stuff.

SPEAKER_00 42:08

Amen to that. So that is the story of the beads that Lexi uh earned a lot of them, and um, it was very impressive. And that was also confirmation that I had a badass, cool wife who was just it was just amazing, and we just have the best times together. So, Lexi, before we sign off, um no more stories. No more stories before we sign off. Um why don't you let everybody know where to where to find you?

SPEAKER_01 42:35

So I can be found um at cuckholdresslexie.com and that's L-E-X-I-E.

SPEAKER_00 42:42

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